I am part-way through a six month wait for cognitive-behavioural therapy. I can’t tell you how much I want to start the treatment, since my attempts to CBT myself resulted in me over analysing myself into a worrying frazzle! I really do need the guidance of a professional to help me challenge the way I think. I’ve notices from other websites that there are many of us waiting for treatment, so I thought I’d provide a quick post in solidarity with you and a word of encouragement.
If you search on the internet for sources of help for depression and self-help groups in the UK there are plenty. If you search for worry, there is very little. There are two British sites I’ve found that are helpful, one is Anxiety UK and the other is Patient UK. There are others with hints and tips, some that are trying to sell a method of wonder treatment that doesn’t require medication, and one or two forums which have posts that are very old.
So why isn’t worry taken seriously? It seems to me that we pat children, young people and adults on the head and say ‘You’re just a worrier.’ And that’s it. Put up with it! But why should we put up with an illness which can rob us of enjoyment of life? I know everyone worries to some degree, but my feeling is that we should take worry seriously and if it does impede our enjoyment of life, then work to make things better.
For me it’s about hope, which is a theme of a couple of the other pieces on this blog. I believe that worry is just part of my life, not the whole me and if I want to be more myself I have to have the hope, not to mention the courage to believe that things can be better.
I am learning to deal with anxious sleep after at least three months of broken sleep. I have to say that sleeplessness really impedes my enjoyment of life and concentration, so I really want to get back into better sleeping patterns. Initially I wondered if the medication was making thing worse, but one of my friends who works in mental health said that was unlikely that after taking the meds for this long that it would still be interfering.
I’ve tried my first couple of things to help me get a better night’s sleep. The first thing that worked was to go to bed later. This is very counter intuitive, because lack of sleep at night means that I often fall asleep in front of the TV or with a book at about 8.30pm! However, I made myself stay awake until 11pm and then slept through until approximately 5.00am, which is much better than usual.
The second thing that worked was an idea I got from a website, which suggested making sure that the ‘environment’ for sleep was right, so I made a few changes, for example added another blanket and opened the window to get some more air circulating etc. I know it’s simple, but it did at least make me more comfortable. It also fuels my hope that I can get better, because recovery has felt, a bit up hill recently. I’ll provide a further installment when I have it, in the mean time I’ll hold on to hope that things will get better…
“Never let go of hope. One day you will see that it all has finally come together. What you have always wished for has finally come to be. You will look back and laugh at what has passed and you will ask yourself… ‘How did I get through all of that?”
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